Music

So today i was wondering what makes life work the way it does. I am at a job i loathe with all of my soul and yet i am still learning something new. Mostly that i hate people and stupidity and the inane reasoning of idiots, other than that....well mostly that.

I came home and decided to fix my blog and mess with it a bit so I can follow some blogs and then allow some comments. Apparently settings are important and I neglected to fix some of them. Fear not those of you who wanted to comment you may now do so, I shall allow it. If you cant comment then I dont like you and tough...(not really just send me a message and I will figure it out, unless of course i really dont like you and that is another story)

As I sat outside today of the dank office i work at i tried to admire the beauty of the world. I plugged in my ear buds and turned on some noise that was not yelling.

This is what i saw and mind you I am behind a big box store of delight, and sitting on a bit of grass. I was listening too whatever random crap Brenda put on my phone and then came Allison Krauss and Union Station. I enjoy a bit of Bluegrass from time to time.(dont tell my dad I will lie and say I hate it )  Hmmm lets see if I can put in a link here: 

http://youtu.be/qBcCq-6KS24

Kind of was a nice song to listen too while i was sitting enjoying the beauty of the day. For those of you who know me music is pretty important to me. All types really. I have songs that remind me of people places and times. Times i dont care to remember but need too, people I am angry at but still love...well you get it. Got me to thinking what is it about music that makes me feel. I remember music from the time I was little. Everything from bluegrass to oldies to acid rock, highland music to choral to symphonic classics. It seems I have a song for everything. Each one of my children have a song related to their birth...Oh you want to know of course you do or else you wouldnt be reading this...sheesh you are a nosy crowd...Here is the list and a link:

Brenda: http://youtu.be/au74rR9lIYQ 

Makayla: http://youtu.be/cJpQIYw-yXM

Laura: http://youtu.be/A_VcTJwGZcw

John: http://youtu.be/H1W2UddURXI

Jakob: http://youtu.be/6xSGLZd9Vg4

There are stories behind the reasons for all of these but for now I will just leave them here...listen and enjoy. In any case still trying to figure out what the heck I am supposed to learn, in the mean time I am going to spend some extra time listening to some music, maybe expanding my repertoire, and just taking one step at a time. 

Somehow this blog and maybe a few nice comments from friends and family(hint hint) will help me through this journey which has had me in the depths of sorrow at times. Down so low that I feel I cannot get out. I know there is always an out, a way to find joy. Oh sure I know I have great people around me, and awesome family....BUT sometimes its hard to feel it when you are alone on a piece of grass outside a dank office with 20 mins of time before you have to reenter. So for a while I will depend on music in my ears find a new song every once in a while or download one I remember from a time long forgotten and read some comments on a silly blog and wonder what people think.  (OH i am always open to new song suggestions too)