Over the last year i have worked hard and lost somewhere in the amount of 60lbs. It has been a terribly difficult journey for me. I have had to really rework my thinking and understanding of how my body works as well as my mind. Last year this time i was on 6 medications. My goal was to get off all of the meds that were not necessary if i just lost weight. I also wanted to keep my self healthy enough to no get diabetes if i could help it. Currently i am on 2 medications, one is to prevent heart disease (which runs in my family) and the other is one that is also a preventative medication for some lady issues. It has taken me 3 weeks to wean off of a medication for depression (so if you can help it dont go on those cause side affects are crap) and 2 more weeks to wean off of a migraine medication i have had to take since my youngest birth. Chronic migraines thankfully are not going to be an issue for me anymore.
Now some of the downsides of my new life: I LOVE cake...the frosting really...LOVE IT...I love cookies as well OREOS AND MILK. I have found that i cannot have much if any refined sugar anymore. Also i am in love bread and all that it means on a cold day with butter. In all my joy to loose weight, i also had to limit my bread intake. Mostly all carbs really, as i have found my body is not happy when i have to work them through.
Another huge downside: the SCALE...which I think is generally a jerk and says something different every minute of every day. I weigh myself every few weeks or so but in general i go by what my clothing say. I have gone from a size 24/26(shameful to say that) to currently an 18 mostly because of boobs. I have found I carry my weight all in the front of me. Its all in my abdomen and i have to work very hard to loose that weight. I am older and neglected myself for a long time.
I have learned to not deprive myself either. When i want chocolate i get some, but i dont eat a ton. When i want some crackers or bread or whatever i eat it, but i do it with A LOT of control. I have to talk to myself and walk myself through it all.
I do not have photos, this is one of my down falls, taking photos. I should have taken some but i have not. Just know that i am feeling so great. I will never be the way I was before my babies but i can certainly be stronger and be around for my grandies....speaking of............
Mr Axel Hugh Rigby is a year old!!!
This pumpkin is in our garden, it grew spontaneously.
They are huge but supposed to be pie pumpkins.
He loves the sunflowers.
Also he loves to give me the trash from the floor. which may sound bad i promise i do clean...well someone does.
He likes to play with the irrigation pipes when the boys are doing it. this was before he was walking...
This one reminded us of our sweet Grandmama Claudia and being with Oliver. Axel had found a rock to put down the tube. The girls talked for a long time that night about Oliver and tubes and how much he did not like having the babies in his tubes.
We are at a new phase in life. John has his permit but our summer has been full of illness...lots of illness really. The boys were sick, super sick, like lay around and die sick. They got better then Shane came down with it for 3 weeks, in the mean while Jake got it again and John is just getting over it. Makayla was in bed for a week then on the strongest antibiotic you can find which is usually a sulfur one...It has been a horrific mess. All the while i have only had 2 days where i was down. But i also drink a gallon of water a day and eat well...in any case here he is driving. My baby who i thought wouldnt make it when he was born. I am so damned proud of him. He makes my heart happy. He is always here to love anyone...And soon he will be going on his mission...too soon.
Through it all we are doing well. I write this blog for my family. Someday they will want to go back and see or remember what happened. I hope i can keep it going. I am few and far between right now, but it will pick up again. My life is full, there is joy, there is love lots of love, there is healing and strength coming from the family Shane and I have created. I am blessed to have been able to be with him. Life is good.
