Disappointment Hiding and Fun

You know what is nice? Using my kids shavers and shaving gel that is nice!!! Ya will Brenda be freaked out by this, sure...do I care...not really. Man, I think of all the years she has used my crap and its like payback in the shower. Sometimes she has this really nice body soap and a loofa thingy...yup I use those too...

Why do I bring this up? well I found this in my fridge today

 

that my friends is cheesecake from the Cheesecake Factory. It would seem the boy my daughter dates has come through on all of the threats I have put out there and tried to win me over. Well little does he know this will have to now be a thing....granted he is leaving for a bit on a mission but I think if you want to marry my kid you should buy me over. Heck...I would take a nice piece of cheesecake after a really awesome shower with someone else's shower crap any day....SERIOUSLY wouldn't you?? Come on moms!! I know you hide in the closet to eat chocolate chips (Tara) and lie to the kids about the yummy food around (Carly). Others hide their cookies in the freezer thinking their kids aren't going to find them (Dorri, might want to rethink that hiding place they are getting older, just sayin) Mine are a bit older I have to do other things.

 

 

In all reality though if I don't do things like this when will they learn disappointment? Life is full of it I mean look at my house right now

this is the front room....the kids have been sleeping there because there is nothing else anywhere else.
don't believe me?

There isn't even a tv in our house right now. The kids have been cleaning this place for 2 weeks. I am sure they would love a break (and probably some good pizza)...and they are sad they are leaving, life is full of disappointment but it is what you make it. We have found ways to have fun and make it enjoyable.

This move has surprised us a bit, well a lot,  but I am grateful for my hubs and his money planning. He has prepared us for such an occurrence and we can come out of it ok. I am so much more grateful for those who support and love us in all ways (D, I love you more than you know, your calls are so needed when they happen). This week is the last week in this house and it has been a great ride over the last 2ish years. Many ups and downs and I cannot imagine our life without people who have come with us on that ride. Our Henrie life is a little strange (come on have you seen my hubs beard?) BUT all in all we have a good time wherever we are.

So what about you? Disappointment, frustration, aggravation whatever you call it, how do you make it through? Who helps you make it through and what do you do to make it fun, to laugh, to find time to have joy? If you are at this spot figure it out, man...get some joy and steal yourself away to a closet (heck if I were as small as Tara I would go in a closet too!) Which reminds me new picts of my closet coming soon....I can hide in that one....

Go find some laughter and make life fun...even if you are full of disappointment and frustration!


Moving, friendship, change

It always amazes me the way people respond to our family. My kids are pretty great, I think I am bias though. The last post talked about us moving...man news travels fast. People everywhere are confused and sad because of the move. It is all good man....all good

Our house on Bergeson is all but empty and our house on Spoonbill is full of some good Henrie lovin'. Life is going to be different but that is what adventure is for. I was thinking today about how many people our little family knows in Boise because of the moves we have made in the area. I then thought about all of those who have impacted our family. There are certainly too many to name but a few come to mind.

Kip Weybright is one of them. First time I met him was at church, tall awkward and yet tell it like it is man. I immediately loved him and his wife Heather. It feels like we have known him through so much of our life in the past few years. He has been there for every up and down. He knows my husband in ways that only one other man I can think of does. He has supported me in through Shanes cancer. When I needed a break he came and sat with Shane, he loves me and takes me as I am. There are a lot of things I have said to Kip that I would never dream of telling anyone else. He is real, kind, supportive, a true priesthood holder with power and authority in the priesthood, as well as an awesome soldier. He is the man who takes my boys for hair cuts, partly because he doesn't have any sons and partly because the boys get to wander the base with their "other dad". Shane and I rarely go out with other couples but Heather and Kip call and we go wherever they are. Our time goes fast and we laugh and always have something to talk about. Heather is full of joy, even though this year has been difficult for her I admire her joy, happiness, and love of life. They are a couple that I hope Shane and I can be like when we grow up...even though they are not that much older than us....

That's Kip helping Shane with the pig....always there the entire day...I cant imagine one with out the other. They can talk to each other about anything and I love it.

I am not a girl on the other hand who has a ton of girl friends...I have a group of women who will put up with me. I think sometimes they cant stand me so I am careful to not over talk my welcome (sometimes that gets out of hand). Rarely do people know the true me as it is too frightening for me. Melanie Terry is one who does. I feel kinda bad for her cause she sometimes gets the full brunt of me and that sucks. She is good though cause sometimes she can look at me and say....too far woman....then I can step off. Not many people can do that. She also understands the times when i don't respond its not because I dont love her its cause I am quirky and need to left alone. Moving to Meridian is going to be hard cause I love talking to her on Sunday. Thank goodness we can chat over Facebook....she gets me. Not that other women don't, I am just careful.

Hey you are thinking She didn't talk about me....well get over it I only have like 15 mins to write this...and maybe today I wasnt thinking of you. I was thinking of people right off the top of my head.

Life is hard, its full of moves, changes and difficulties. How do you adjust to it? I tend to go inside and just wait out the storm. It gets stormy....my home right now is empty and its sad...my life is in a bit of a chaotic moment but there is an underlying peace that presides, slowly showing itself....helping me understand that I am ok, I am going to be ok, there are other women who need to meet me and decide if they want to know me. Other women to offend (oh ya man it happens a lot with me, especially in Idaho)

It has been very interesting to see the reactions of those around us. People who I never expected have made a comment of how sad they are that we are moving. I am sort of surprised. My kids are handling it much better than I am. Then I think back to the times when I was a kid and we moved. I vaguely remember sad people and the frustration of making new friends. I also remember my mum grumbling about it. (I could be wrong about that part). It was tough but I think it made me realize that life is full of change. Change sucks but opportunity for growth is a good thing. 

So in the future think about what changes did to you in your life? How do they affect you and do they make you better? I can hope for my kids they are learning to value of friendship, love, companionship, and not to have too much crap cause most of it is useless.....

PPPPOOOOO-pourri

Most people know that I work at Bed Bath and Beyond....I only work there once a week at this point and its fun to go as I work with some interesting people. I feel like I wield some power there, I probably dont but it is a nice thought. 

Last winter one of my managers found this funny youtube video about a product that I found quite hilarious

 

I showed this clip to everyone!!!! Ya so I went to work last saturday night, low and behold there on my desk is the product........

Apparently there are different smells as well....so for 9.99 you can go and get yourself some stuff that will make your poo not stink...Last time I checked it was on back order but there it is my friends...go out and get yourself some!!1

Craptastic to New Journey

****I wrote this at the end of last week so be aware we have known about this move since 2 weeks ago****

I said I would update a friend about my Craptastic life at the moment so here goes. Beware there may be tears, anger, frustration, then possibly some elation along with then more tears....who knows but as I have been told I seem to have some sort of prolific way of writing. I am not sure what that means but eh guess I am good at something....(I know don't freak out I am good at other stuff)

Life in the Henrie home seems to go along as normal then by some crazy notion there is an explosion of crap....it all started a few weeks ago when my sister told me she had lost her baby. She was about 20 weeks and had to go through the horror of giving birth to little tiny Rosie and not being able to have a live little one. My sadness was indescribable but mostly because I love my sister so much and I cannot imagine the pain of not having a beautiful baby. She is a great mother and makes just as glorious children and I know she is going to be fine but it was a long ordeal and I wished to be with her. I know that she was aware of my constant thoughts of her. Her husband is amazing and has taken great care of her, along with her beauties.

As that was settling down Shane made a trip to the ER for something which I am not at liberty to discuss right now (he doesn't like me talking about him on the blog...I tell him not to worry nobody reads it except Melissa anyway( I love you Milz)) So we figure out whats up with him, its nothing major just annoying. Life is gonna chill right....NOPE not so much.

Then Sunday morning (July 6th) about an hour before church starts I get a text that we are being evicted from our home we live in. YUP welcome to the crap fest people. So we get a TEXT people, not even the balls to come and talk to us. Well I must say that Shane can look scary but he is not, he is a good man who will only kill you if necessary. What a whirlwind, what do we do? The land lord says to us if you get out in a week you don't have to pay rent for July we say oookkkkaaayyy?!!! and then we look at each other and say are you insane...........WAIT I have to back up

Makayla had been sick the few days before this happened, found fleas all over her bed...good stuff thanks dogs...and she is allergic to EVERYTHING so life was sucking for her. We also had to get rid of her bed. so that is outside just hanging by the fence.

ANNNND to top that off Jake got sick for 2 days throw up everywhere he gets better and Laura comes down with it.

By Wednesday night we fortunately found a place to live. We had come home from a journey to look at houses it was late, i checked Craigslist one more time and there was the house. At 930pm we went to see it and i was the best thing I had ever seen. I knew the moment we set foot in the house that we were meant to be there. I even cried as I stepped out on the back patio with the landlord. I couldnt hold back the rush of peace and emotion that I felt. It is not our forever home by any means but it is the next stop off. So the moving process began....as of this writing we are half way done moving to the other house in Meridian.

Oh ya i forgot to mention the house is in Meridian. 2 blocks from Meridian High School great for Makayla as she wants to take a mechanics course. Its one of the best ones in the Valley and that is going to be great. It will certainly give her a leg up in life because she will graduate with a certificate. I am excited for that. We couldnt have found a better place for her. This house puts us in another stake (again) far away from the little ward we are in here. I am sad, I will miss everyone, I am sad, but yet excited. The kids feel its the right place to go to so that is comforting to me.

The craptastic can sometimes turn to the fabulous. Sometimes it can still stay crappy. I know that life is hard, that life is full of frustration, anxiety whatever, but we are not given too much. Does it seem like that? It sure does. This week I have felt that I cannot take one more thing, not one more thing, and yet I seem to have made it through everyday. I have spent a lot of time crying, praying, pondering on what to do. Shane has had more of his fair share of frustration as well. He has had to deal with my crying (something that really frustrates him as he cannot fix it) But also he has taken the reigns as the father of our family to make sure we are safe and taken care of. The one thing I asked of him was that he would always take care of us...again he has proven his unconditional love for our children and me.

Sometimes we have to follow the Spirit, little voice, guide...whatever you call it. Following it will bring peace in your life. Following that voice gives me the peace that we have made the best decision for our family. It took me a long time to realize the love of the Savior in all parts of my life. I am so grateful for His loving guidance. I am grateful for the ability I have to comfort those around me. I am grateful for my sister and her strength. I know she does not believe as I do but I feel so much for her. I love her and envy her strength. I feel the same of my brother who called me in the midst of the mess just to tell me how much he loves me and that he is there for me, whatever I need. My sister Sarah took my angry day and let me yell, scream, cry and be just plain angry. She took the time to tell me that we are going to be ok, we always have been. She told me to not worry but take a few minutes for myself and just relax. I received the same support from my parents as well.

So here is to a new journey for our family....you know how to find me.....I will be blogging

Computers, Snuggles and Love Twu Wuv

Over the past little bit my computer has been a bit under the weather. I am a bit sad about that. Actually what happened is that the charging cord stopped working i sent out for a new one as I have a warranty. I take great umbrage at outsourced phone calls. Annoyance is part of daily life but I know your name is not Lisa or Jacob, is something different and you are suckling a monkey while you are talking to me because you are always saying weird things. I guess I should not be too upset about his but...BUT, 2 times they have sent me the wrong charger. I am trying to be patient but its frustrating me.

I thought I would post some photos of what has been going down in the Henrie town. Jake told me about a month ago that he was too big to sit on my lap any more. Apparently he is a big guy now and he doesnt need me, ya he is a liar cause this happened a few days later.

He explained to me that sometimes he has to take care of me, so he has to snuggle with me. Made me chuckle but it was nice although he is NOT a small boy.

 Last weekend we did a pig roast for an ward we used to attend. Pig roasts are a ton of work. I am not sure people really know how much work goes into one but we started at 6am and didnt finish until 8pm. Cooking the pig is part of the work we have to get the pig from the farm and take it to the butcher and then pick it up and then store it for an evening....makes for a long week. Then we do turkeys also and those have to be thawed, cut in half, seasoned and stored as well to let the seasoning sit for a day or so. Life is all pig and turkey for a week then its all smoke for the last day. Smoke in your eyes, nose, mouth, clothing...everywhere. Makes for a sucky end to it but its fun to see the joy on peoples faces when they see a pig come off the spit and have some to eat. Along with some smoked turkey. If i do say so my self its really good food. Sane and the kids are impressive, they make some delicious food. Not only do they cook all the food but they make some killer root beer....I am not  fan of root beer but this stuff I like.

 (I have a tough time putting pictures in the right spot on this blog thing so bear with me. I didnt want to put them all in a row, I wanted them side by side...whatever dont care it is what it is)
In any case I am pretty proud of my bunch of cookers and how much work they put into it all. We do not get paid to do this, just reimbursed our cost. I think it makes our family quite unique, along with other things that we do as a family. A lot of people tend to think we work our kids all the time or we are all business. We decided when we were first married that our kids would be busy. Hunting, fishing, camping, cooking, ya there is cleaning, working together finding ways to always have something going on so that they didnt feel bored or find things to do which may be unsavory....

This photo is one of the last ones i took before I had to go to work. I work Saturday nights at Bed Bath and Beyond still so I went and worked a 6 hour shift after all of this as well. Its no wonder we missed church the next day as we all did not wake up till 845. Then we sat around and some of us went back to sleep........some of us just veged out and did nothing......

It is awesome to hang with my family. I sometimes have a hard time telling them I love them, not sure why that is, but they are amazing.

Over the past month I have been through some ups and downs which have tested my resolve. I think personal struggles can push our emotions to the breaking point. They can also skew your idea of normal, your ability to work with your spouse and children....I think other things as well but i dont want to go there. I have noticed lately that there is an underlying resolve to break apart the family, destroy the relationships between husband and wife. I have also noticed that disagreements between spouses are causing great damage to children. There are some hard issues going on around me of which I try not to comment on. I have experienced tragedy, abuse, love, amazing triumph, some more tragedy, some more love, and triumph. For the last month I have been hoping for more triumph and working towards that. Its a long hard road, and I need to keep going. But I will not publicly speak about the abuse I suffered at the hands of a particular person to help others feel better. That will make me relive a time of my life which I have moved away from. I have learned the power of Christs Atonement, his sacrifice for me behooves me to forgive and move forward.If I am to be Christlike I need to forgive, this means I leave behind the suffering and live for the future. I dont need to shout from the roof tops or through social media to be a strength to others. I find that being who I am, becoming strong, independent, loving, understand, full of empathy can show others the power of Christ.

Take or leave what I say but its my blog and frankly life is so full of good things, i choose to teach my daughters the power of womanhood. I choose to teach my sons the beauty of priesthood and manhood. I choose to teach my children the joy of life and power that comes from Christ and his love for us.

Love is an amazing thing, it can make or break you depending on how you utilize it, you can use it to destroy or you can use it to uplift. My life with my husband has not been easy by any stretch of the imagination. We have struggled with monetary issues, health issues, personal issues (between each other) some other couples would have broken by now, yet here we are...Forgiveness (Christs Atonement) and love are the 2 things which drive us.

I love this man (with or with out the beard) because he loves me. He took me at a time when I was not able to love or understand how he could love me...he took me and loved me no matter what. He found a woman inside that was torn and broken and made her whole again. He didnt have too, but he did. Have I been mean? YUP sure have...has he? YOU BET...but we found a way to work through it. No person is perfect, I know for sure I am not, but I think my hubs is pretty close. He is for me, what about yours...can you see through the issues and remember what you married that person for? Can you put aside all of the daily junk and find the love you had at the beginning before you got naked together? Can you find it somewhere in you to fix whatever is wrong or if nothing is wrong find something to make your life sing? Dont forget to pay attention to each other....someday the kids will be gone and it will be you and that other person....

Some day it will be just us and I am pretty excited to get some time to hang with someone really cool....

Stress can turn to love?

It has been a while, not sure why, well I may have a answer but its nothing I want to talk about. Not sure I might in some ways....

I got through the training at my job and then within a few days (like 5) I ended up on my own. YUP, at a desk in a cube on my own. Its super scary and I don't know all of the information and I feel inadequate to help people on the phone but in reality I think I know what needs to be done. Seems overwhelming for me. I have realized that I am a slight perfectionist, but only at work. At home I think I could care less. WHAT the floor is dirty, eh whatever...or the boys are beating each other up....ok such is life. Although a dirty tub and toilet do bother me (eh ehm BRENDA HENRIE) I find that I am pretty laid back.

Trying to not stress over things is important to me. I don't want to be going all the time so that when I sit down I am bored. I like to sit down and do nothing but watch a movie or read a book....speaking of I have not read a good book in a while and I think I am getting angry about that. Scriptures are great and all but I need a good sit down book, so if you have one let me know about it!

I am working 4 10 hour days this week (which would probably be why I am overwhelmed) because of the 4th holiday. I wanted to make sure I got 40 hours in. It has been a long crazy time and often I want to go home and cry but sleep seems to do it, well not really but I think it does. OH you want to see my space??? I will show you.....

 

 

Seems like a nice spot eh? well not homey yet but i have to get some pictures up and see if I can at least not feel like I am never home. I am in the back corner of the office and sometimes I don't get much air but I brought the fan from home and hope it will help some.

 

This is the first time I am away from home all week long and its weird for me. Tell you what though the first paycheck was awesome. It is nice to give to the house and know that in a few years we can have our own house, a place of our own...Its nice to see the relief in the hubs face to see the money coming in and the peace he feels from that. Life has been so up and down for us that making it all work has been done on a wing and a series of prayers. I am glad that things work the way they do and we are watched over.

 

I am more grateful for my sisters and brothers. They always seem to know when to call me and check on me. To leave me a message or tell me they love me. I am blessed to have them in my life. I hope I can teach my kids the same. Even though we are far apart we are so supportive of each other.

 

Life can throw so much crap in our faces and learning to cope with it is tough. Having a sister to complain too or cry on in hard times makes for a good life. Even though we are all so different and have such different views, they are accepting of me and I of them.

 

Its funny how we want the best for each other but when tragedy strikes we rally and love....love binds us and I am grateful for that.