Sadness

I have been contemplating how to write this post and if I really want to but its on my mind, so here goes. Sorry for all those who may not like it but here goes....

The announcement I was going to make is not quite what I thought it was going to be, get ready for the story. Shane and I started looking for houses in January after we found mold in the house that we were renting. The house was full of mold. Not a good thing considering John had been sick constantly since being in that house. We were finally at a point where he needed to be sleeping somewhere else. We fashioned a warm tent in the garage where there was no mold. John ended up with bronchitis, strep and 2 types of bacteria growing in his lungs by the time we got out of that house.

We found a wonderful house in Emmett with 20 acres. It was so lovely and quaint. All of the things we wanted to have including irrigation. We handed in all of the paperwork before time and had everything done...the last minute I mean 8 or so at night on Thursday we were moving on Friday the underwriters said no. So we were homeless, as we had to move out. What do we do? Where do we go? The frustration of not having a place to go and fear was almost overwhelming.

Someone came to mind. A friend had reached out to me earlier this year and she had a few rooms for rent. For some reason she came to mind, I knew she hadnt rented to rooms so i gave her a call. I cried for a bit probably too much, yes it was the ugly cry with the headache and all...but she said come over and move in. Her upstairs has 4 rooms and 2 bathrooms and a small living area. We share a kitchen and laundry, all things we have to work out.

Life has been put in a whirlwind and working out everything is hard. We are together and we love each other. Long story short dont put all your eggs in one basket. Now we are back in East Boise trying to figure out what we are going to do. But for now we are together...just together.

Leaving Birthdays and Love

So much has been going on in our family. February and March are always busy for us. Sometimes stopping and relaxing is not in the cards. I have been working about 60 hours a week for the last month and I am exhausted. Last weekend was my last at Bed Bath and Beyond. I worked there almost 8 years. I worked my way through college there, fought with my boss, found some great life long friends there and I might miss it. I frankly enjoyed the chats I had with some of the managers I got to know. I find that I have good friends mostly in men. I am not sure why that is but they are safe for me and I dont have to explain myself to them. On my last day I got something really lovely

These little bundt cakes are AUH-MA-ZING!!! If you live anywhere near Eagle Rd in Meridian Idaho you must go and try one. It was like heaven in my mouth. Apparently my boss made a special trip and brought them for me. I shared them with my 2 managers and had great talks with them. It was bitter sweet. 

Then we had Brendas birthday. I am not going to do a blog about that right now as all of my photos are packed away. She is wonderful and amazing. I supposed we must have done a good job with her but she still sticks around. I sure am grateful for her and her humor. Makes for a fun house with her around. She is waiting patiently for Connor to get home. He sends emails and letters to her. I am so proud of him and his choices to make life the best he can. He is really amazing and I am proud of him. I am glad he really loves Brenda. She deserves him, and he deserves her. It will be great to see him when he gets back. 

Soon after Brenda is Laura. She turned 15 this year. I dug out my favorite picture of her from when she was a baby. 

 I want to do a blog for her but again all of the photos are packed. 

She is amazing a wonderful as well. She has a wonderful smile and makes life fun. I am so grateful to have her in my life. She has been through a lot of trials and works hard to keep herself on the right path of life. Her hair is so beautiful, I wish mine was just as wonderful. 

I got promoted to another side of the company. Leaving customer care was a bit tough, but it was not exactly the place i wanted to be. I did not know how much i was loved. 

I love my new job!! It came with a raise. I am excited. I will be glad to not be working 60 hours a week again. I will down to about 45 which is nice. A bit of OT but not too much. I have a cooler desk and a better chair so that is nice.

Life is changing in all arenas for us. I still have an announcement to make but I cannot make it for another week. There will be pictures along with that announcement. Being in Meridian has been a blessing. Meeting Michael and Darla Plyer has made our lives much better. Every time I see Darla i just want to hug her and tell her how much i love her. Unfortunately I am terrible at hugging people and showing crap like that ...i try but it just doesnt work. I am so grateful to them for the love that they have shown Makayla. She has been so happy for the last months and I can finally see the pain gone from her face. She is still learning when to call Michael for help but it she will work it out. 

Sometimes the trials we go through are so overwhelming and frustrating that we often cannot see the positives. I have been that way lately. It is hard to get out and be happy. Then i see these kids i made and wonder at the treasures they are. How did these ones come from me and Shane? Where on the road did we make the good decisions which have created good humans? I have no idea but I am so blessed to have all that I have....I need to work on being more present and happy.