2 friends.

Anyone out there have a really good friend, someone who is so close to you that you can say anything to them? Be anything with them? I have one or 2 in my life who i can call anytime and they make me sane. These 2 women take me as I am, call me on my bullshit, let me talk about really private things (stuff i have a hard time talking about), they have seen me at my worst and at my best...I think about them almost daily and wish they didnt live in completely different states.

I want to say so much about them. They have been my support in times when I felt like there was nobody else there. All of the years we lived in Maine, we lived across town from one friends house, I would pack up my babies and go spend the day with this woman, just on the bed in her kitchen. Yes, she had a daybed in her kitchen. She was often home as her youngest son is disabled and required almost constant attention. She makes the best pies in the universe, some of the best soup, in fact everything she cooks is delicious. She can make something out of nothing, everything from food to clothing. This friend was raising her last few children still, she is a mother of 10 lovelies. She had a difficult time with her first husband, then divorce happened, and she found another man who was supportive and helpful. Life for her was not an easy ride for her. She started out as my seminary teacher and i was a friend of her oldest daughter. Then as time went on we became closer. She is one of the dearest friends I have. I can call on her any time. Ok not ANY time cause after 9 she kind of shuts down.

I have so much to say about her and not enough room to put it all here. She is the one who encourages me to be myself, who helped to dig me out of the a hole when I though I couldn't get out, ate Ben and Jerrys with me when I was down and made me see the joy of my children. She helped me see the problems they were having and the difficult choices I had to make to take care of them. Everything from therapy for some of my children, to my little baby in the NICU and her taking the time to come see me. That is a feat in and of itself that she could come and see me. I remember vividly her talking to me about the joy that little boy would give me as he grew older. Leaving her and moving to Idaho was one of the hardest things I had to do. She met us at the state line and I got a photo with her i miss her, i miss her tremendously. I call her as often as I can, just to hear her voice and know that i am ok.

The other friend lives in yet another state. She is a bit closer in Colorado. Over the past 7 or so years we have lived in Idaho she has made an effort to come see our family. For a few years she brought her sister. These girls have grown up with me. I remember when the youngest sister was born. In fact my friends mom is my mom, she took over for my mum when she died. I have been friends with her and her family for almost all of my life. Over the past few years we have become closer. She has had some trials in her life as have I. We have found a common ground where we can talk and become. She does not go to church but she supports me in all that i do. She encourages me to keep going, to work on myself with the gospel.She makes me know that all that I am doing with my children is right. That the path Shane and I have chosen for our children is a good path. That her feelings of the LDS church do not shroud the advice she gives me.

On my worst days i can text her usually from the bathroom at work and tell her i cant take it anymore...and i get something back that is full of love and laughter...she has become and is my sister. I think we have needed each other for a long time, finally we have each other. She just had the most beautiful baby girl and one of my regrets is not being there for her, physically. We have spoken so often by text, messenger, phone that i feel like i have been there for her as much as i can. I know how hard it is to have a baby and be alone in a house and trying to be a mom. I have such a reverence for her. I love her with all that I am. I would entrust my children to her. She struggles with life and so do I, we understand each other.

So do you have any friends like this? These 2 women make me who I am, take me as I am and encourage me to be the best I can. I love them more and more every day. Become that friend, be the one that someone turns to in the times when they cannot go on. I know I still need them, I only hope I can be that one for someone else.